from a locked post on Sandy's blog:
Feeling horrendous amounts of overwhemingingesses & trappednesses again. Josh had a horrible horrible night, crying, hitting, refusing to go to bed. This went on till after midnight, so i got so very little sleep.
i also have this fear that Josh is going to have one these outbursts Out There (he was even hitting me which he does not usually do) and they'll decide to lock him up & drug him up & there'll be this wonderful person Totally Lost. 'cause you know... Josh, under all that autism is a really neat person. He is intelligent, has an impish sense of humor and and and yeah, so much more.